Content Warning: sexual abuse, rape, spiritual abuse
This week’s guest is Jessica Moore, a life coach focusing on purity culture. Jessica grew up in a non-denominational Christian in Salt Lake City Utah surrounded by Mormons. She felt both the pressure to evangelize and be proselytized.
Jessica went to an unaccredited Christian college where she first began to have doubts. She wound up traveling to Israel and seeing life on both sides of the Palestinian/Israeli border. She experienced the reverse culture shock coming back to the United States.
Jessica put a lot of pressure on herself to be a “godly woman.” Purity culture had a damaging impact on her life.
The focus of her work now is helping people recover from purity culture and religious abuse.
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I put a lot of pressure on myself to be a godly women
Purity culture is a list of don’ts. It does not give you integrity or knowing your worth as a person.
I was not taught my worth. Obviously, I was taught I wasn’t worth anything until Jesus died for me.
[A “word” from God about shame] It felt special to me at the time, because I did carry shame.
My very black and white world turned very mucky gray.
I was on a quest to be a powerfully godly woman. I was just starving for that. What everyone else had, I wanted that too.
I had this strong devotion what was it all for
When I think about it, it wasn’t so much my faith in Jesus, it was trying to hold on to this good girl persona that was being challenged.
Oh my gosh, Jesus isn’t real!
I can’t even say I lost my faith, it really just dissipated.
It was like trying to grab a cloud and you can’t. It was gone.
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